The Options...
So obviously, finding myself unexpectedly single in my mid thirties is not where I had expected my life to take me... time for Plan C (I'll get to plan B in a moment - it failed). I immediately signed up with a sperm bank in California... that was easy... then I went to the Dr to get a full medical check... and then I hit the brakes... I wasn't ready for this yet... this was a knee jerk reaction... I needed time to get over my heartbreak and of course I needed to consider Plan B.
PLAN B
Find a Prince Charming. Or something... of course I hadn't given myself the option to meet someone else... perhaps they were right in front of me and I was surely not going to notice them if I threw myself headfirst into this donor sperm plan was I? So I gave myself a deadline and waited to be charmed.
Success! I mean, he had some issues but hey I was blinded by how opposite to the ex he was... amazing... calm, cool, emotional... and another 6 months passed... oh dear, I was wrong!
Dating is so fun that I threw myself into that too... okcupid, match, tinder... I've tried them all but that's fodder for another blog altogether... and at the end of it all I still haven't found a suitable partner... I have however, found a few good friends and that's a reward in itself.
So yes, plan B has failed me. It's time to hit plan C
Plan C options
- Adoption
- Foster (with option to adopt)
- Steal baby from stranger (Just kidding)
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- Use Donor Sperm
What I'm trying to tell you here is that even though I signed up with a sperm bank 3 years ago I never really considered it as an option... I think it was my way of creating a safety net and a way of reassuring myself that I could indeed do it on my own. Over the next 3 years I slowly but surely warmed up to the idea and stopped judging myself for the choice I was heading towards making. After all, until we stop judging ourselves we can't expect others not to judge us.
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