Wednesday, May 4, 2016

5.5 months

More than 5 months pregnant and a day away from 24 weeks and the magical viability date. I cannot believe I'm here! 

Pregnancy so far has been very kind to me. I had no sickness and the food aversions calmed down. I'm just left to being horrified by the idea of mussels which really hasn't proven to be a problem at all! As far as aches and pains go I've been wildly uncomfortable in a bra for months. My ribs are so sore. In spite of my 34E boobs I've managed to go braless most of the time. For work I make do with a tank top with built in shelf. My boobs are like rocks so they're not moving when I walk around... Haha. 

And baby boy... He's doing awesome, my placenta is at the rear so I've been feeling regular movement since 14 weeks. Now it's intense and my whole belly moves from his shenanigans. I have no idea if it's hands or feet, knees or elbows but he is busy in there!  I love it. It's so reassuring to feel him and to see the reverberations. I really really love being pregnant. Of course the anxiety is there but I focus on the positive and banish the worries. I just try to enjoy every moment of this once in a lifetime experience. I cannot wait to meet him but then again I'm also excited to see how my pregnancy progresses and feels as it goes on.

My uterus also seems to be doing a good job of expanding. I now feel movement on my right hand side which I hadn't expected so soon. It's measuring on target and my cervix is staying long as witnessed at my bi weekly appointments. 

So now we wait and see if I'm a candidate for vaginal birth or not. It will all depend on his position. Breach is common with this kind of uterus but if he gets in a good position then there's no reason I couldn't attempt a natural birth. I'll go into that more when I know more. 

I am still in a state of disbelief that ivf finally worked for me. I was so convinced I was never going to be a mother. Maybe that's why I've had a lack of panic moments. I never worry about how my life will change and the huge responsibility that's about to befall me. I have led a very fun, adventurous, travel filled existence and I have been bored with it for years. I just want to be a mother and when he's big enough I plan to show the world to him! Soon as he can get vaccines, we are off on new adventures. .. But first I have to get him here safely. 

I finally sign off happily!