I have whiled away the past 3 months waiting for my body to recover from the ivf drugs and preparing myself for my FET. I don't know what that really means but the magical 3 periods have passed and I'm back on the estrogen by mouth and by patch.
Pretty stressful few months all in all. I've been living with friends and family while I wait for my house to be renovated. It's going to be so beautiful but it's been tough to be in other people's space - since May! Will be so happy when it's done.
I also got broken up with -via text 3 weeks ago. Then he ghosted me. It's really thrown me as we really did get along and I'd spent so much time around his kids and in his home. We certainly had problems but conversation would have been great. I know I'm better off out of it but I considered him a good friend and am now left with a slew of unanswered questions and new insecurities to process. Can I just say "asshole?"
I did read this article and it made me feel better and not so stupid.
http://www.thedatereport.com/dating/advice/and-then-i-never-heard-from-him-again-the-awful-rise-of-ghosting/
Of course on the day he sort of dumped me via text I also lost a woman who had been very dear to me in my childhood. Double whammy. It never rains.
So in order to end on a positive note I have a wonderful home that will be ready by the time I get the results of the FET. I no longer have to worry about what role, if any a man would play in my life because the man is out of it. My intention was to do it on my own and I was not comfortable having someone there from the start that I wasn't committed to. I've got an amazing adventure planned for the new year in the event that my FET fails. I'm thinking of starting my own little business. Pondering foster to adopt again and doing everything I can to chase happiness no matter what.
