7 weeks and a heartbeat!

Sorry for the delay in a post... It's not that I didn't think about it or want to do it, more that I was letting the world play out without having another blog post about my bitter disappointment.

So luckily, this is actually about my cautious joy at being currently 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant and being witness to the tiny little snowflakes beating heart not once, but twice!

It hasn't been totally smooth of course. I peed on a stick 5 days after transfer and got my faint, squinter of a positive. As I freaked myself out that the lines weren't getting darker quick enough I finally pulled my beta forward a day as patience was not on my side! A nice beta of 115 if I recall correctly. Second beta followed and was 465.

I had a small bleed on Christmas Day which I was very calm about but a few days later, out to dinner with a friend and I had a big bleed! I thought it was all over. I was sure I'd lost a pregnancy again but an ultrasound the next day at 5 wk 4 days showed a strong heartbeat instead of the empty uterus I'd imagined. Probably the most amazing and unexpected thing I've ever seen in my life.

Since then all has been well. I've not had a single "oh shit!" Moment. I've spent so long getting here that I just don't have time for second thoughts. This little kid needs to get here in one healthy piece to recieve so much love. I can't believe it's happening. I'm so excited to get a belly. Now my biggest challenge is to stay grounded and make this next 5 weeks go fast. I think I'll really relax after I hit the magic 12 week mark.

Oh and so far my symptoms are manageable. Mild nausea and boobs that done feel like they belong on this body!