Awaiting my FET

I've managed to enjoy the last couple of weeks in a genuine fashion.  

When the nurse asked me about trying this cycle I hesitated and then confessed it was because I just wanted to be able to enjoy one week where I could have a couple of glasses of wine and act like a normal woman enjoying the Summer!  She told me that I could go ahead and indulge... that the embryo's were safe and that so long as I stopped drinking when I started progesterone I'd be just fine!

So, whilst alcohol isn't the be all and end all to having a good time and I certainly don't drink very much it was nice to be able to go out and socialize without having to make up excuses as to why I wouldn't have a glass of wine.  Admittedly, it takes me an hour + to drink one glass so I'm no bartenders dream client anyways!  

What have I done with my week of freedom?  I've seen live music, been to the beach, dipped in the ocean at 3am, had a house filled with lovely guests and gone to bed waaaay too late and enjoyed every second.   Still telling nobody that I'm popping estrogen pills and wearing a patch on my abdomen in preparation for my FET later next month.   It's incredible how much better I feel with nobody knowing.  The pressure is off in a way I can't quite explain.  

I've even asked friends not to talk to me about it whilst I'm taking a break (other than fellow SMC's with whom I'm happy to talk!)

So next week I go for my blood work and ultrasound to ensure that I haven't ovulated (I still can't wrap my head around why they don't just follow the natural cycle of the body but I guess they're the experts!)  Then it's back on the Crinone and transfer a few days later.  

And then, once again, I wait.